Sunday, December 21, 2008

Ako'y sayo, Ika'y akin

Ikaw na ang may sabi
Na ako'y mahal mo rin
At sinabi mo
Na ang pag-ibig mo'y 'di magbabago
Ngunit bakit sa tuwing ako'y lumalapit ika'y lumalayo
Puso'y laging nasasaktan pag may kasama kang iba
'Di ba nila alam
Tayo'y nagsumpaan
Na ako'y sa'yo
At ika'y akin lamang

At kahit ano'ng mangyari
Pag-ibig ko'y sa 'yo pa rin
At kahit ano pa
Ang sabihin nila'y ikaw pa rin
Ang mahal
Maghihintay ako kahit kailan
Kahit na
Umabot pang ako'y nasa langit na
At kung 'di ka makita
Makikiusap kay Bathala
Na ika'y hanapin
At sabihin
Ipaalala sa iyo
Ang nakalimutang sumpaan
Na ako'y sa iyo
At ika'y akin lamang
(instrumental) (interlude) (pahinga muna)

Umasa kang
Maghihintay ako kahit kailan
Kahit na
Umabot pang ako'y nasa langit na
At kung 'di ka makita
Makikiusap kay Bathala
Na ika'y hanapin at sabihin
Ipaalala sa iyo
Ang nakalimutang sumpaan
Na ako'y sa iyo
At ika'y akin lamang (mabagal na)

Friday, December 19, 2008

Being Grateful

I am grateful because I have been tagged by Hazel. I want to thank her for remembering me and sharing "I Am Grateful Because..." tag to me. I am happy though we haven't meet yet for real I can feel that you are a real and genuine person. Thank you very much and advance merry christmas!

1. God gave me a wonderful and supportive family.
2. I have a lot to be grateful for the things that God given me.
3. I have real and true friend for real and online.
4. God always watches over me and always knows what's best for me.
5. God gave me peace and serenity about my current situation.


1. Re-post the picture on your blog and please acknowledge where it came from. Kindly leave a comment on this post so I would know you've posted it.
2. Write down 5 things you are grateful for and the 5 bloggers you are tagging.
3. You may copy this or write your own quote regarding gratitude

Now, I am passing this tag to my friends: (more than 5 of them)


Let it Go

There are people who can walk away from you.
And hear me when I tell you this! When people walk away from you: let them walk. I don’t want you to try to talk to that person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.
The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can’t make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn’t mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you’ve got to know when people’s part in your story is over so that you don’t keep trying to raise the dead.

You’ve got to know when it’s dead.
You’ve got to know when it’s over. Let me tell you something. I’ve got the gift of good-bye. It’s the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It’s not that I’m hateful, it’s that I’m faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have, He’ll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don’t need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn’t belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to……


If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ……


If someone can’t treat you right, love you back, and see your worth…..


If someone has angered you.


If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge……


If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction……


If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents


If you u have a bad attitude…….


If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better……


If you’re stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him……..


If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship…….


If you keep trying to help someone who won’t even try to help themselves……


If you’re feeling depressed and stressed ……….


If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying ‘take your
hands off of it,’ then you need to……


‘The Battle is the Lord’s!’

During the next 60
seconds, Stop whatever you are doing, and take this opportunity.

(Literally it is only ONE minute!)
All you have to do is the following:
You simply say ‘The Lords Prayer”..

The Lords Prayer

Our Father, who are in Heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name, Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day, our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil.
For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power, and the Glory, forever.

Next, stop and think and appreciate God’s power in your life, for doing what you know is pleasing to Him.

PS: Do you believe in angels? I do…they come in various sizes, shapes, faces like your friends and families, they can sometimes become the shining light that flickers through the dark times in your life….

bitaw as I was browsing the Internet nahunong ko ani nga blog about ni cya sa isa ka girl nga in despair nakau sa iyang life then suddenly she read an email sa iyang cousin nga mao na ang sulat …mao to she think her cousin is the angel that let her wake up sa iyang depression…..then I like sa blog kay mura pud cya wake up call nko nga dli mo hang on sa isa ka thing or person….

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Be Thankful for all the blessings

Since Thanksgiving Day is fast approaching, I posted this thank you prayer for all the blessings that God has given me all through the years. I grabbed this tag from Hazels blog. Thank you for posting this girl. It will remind me to be thankful everyday.

Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire, If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don't know something. For it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times. During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations. Because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge. Because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes. They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you're tired and weary. Because it means you've made a difference.

GRATITUDE can turn a negative into a positive. Find a way to be thankful for your troubles and they can become your blessings.

Now, I am tagging all my friends here. You are all free to grab this tag. Happy Blogging!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Finally Over

After all the confusion, doubts, insecurities finally I am receiving a go signal from the doctor that everything is going to be fine and I can travel. I guess patience is really a virtue and through constant prayer and keeping the faith God finally answer my prayer. But what's really making me happy is that well somebody from my past came back and well we did have a few misunderstanding and heartaches but now we're friends again unfortunately time's not kind and we will not have a chance to see each other for now. I will be going away next week and he will be coming by January ohh geessh now that we're friends again time is not yet kind. But I'm happy though that he came back whatever God's plan for me I'll just trust him more than I trust myself :-) If God will that we will meet in the future hmmm I'll just wait and see...okies that's all for now folks words just can't express what I feel :-)I'm just thankful to God that my confusions and impatience are over and now I can start to move on to the next chapter.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

I'll Still be Loving You

Changin my life... with your love
has been so easy for me
And I'm amazed
Every day
And I'll need you....

Till all the mountains are valleys
and every ocean is dry
My love.....

I'll be yours until the sun doesn't shine
Till time stands still
until the winds don't blow
When today is just a memory to me
I know.....
I'll still be loving
I'll still be loving
I'll still be loving you

Never Before..
did I know
How loving someone could be
Now I can see
You and Me
For a lifetime

Until the last moon is rising
you'll see the love in my eyes
My Love....

I'll be yours until the sun doesn't shine
Till time stands still
until the winds don't blow
When today is just a memory to me
I know.....
I'll still be loving
I'll still be loving


I'll be yours until the sun doesn't shine
Till time stands still
until the winds don't blow
When today is just a memory to me
I know.....
I'll still be loving
I'll still be loving

I'll still be loving you.
I'll still be loving..I'll still be loving you...
I'll still be loving..I'll still be loving you...
I'll still be loving..I'll still be loving you...

PS: One of my favorite song ever very beautiful....nice video too

God's Hotline Number

As I was waiting for my doctor's appointment this morning a poster suddenly caught my attention about God's hotline number so I read it unfortunately I didn't finish reading it since I've got called. Fortunately because of the Internet I've found it and would like to share with you because it might just help you when you need HIM the most. Enjoy and I hope you'll always keep the faith in HIM :-)

When someone is being mean to you, call PSALM 27(A)

When you're feeling sad, call JOHN 14

When others make fun of you because of your faith, call PSALM 31

When you are sorry for doing something wrong, call PSALM 51

When you want to help God and do His work, call JOHN 15

When you are worried, call MATTHEW 6:25-34

When you have impure thoughts, call ROMANS 13:11-14

When you want something for nothing, call ISAIAH 55

When you want all people to pray, call PSALM 67

When you are in danger, call PSALM 91

When you are not sure what to do, call JOHN 10:1-16

When someone has lied to others about you, call PSALM 12

When you need courage, call JOSHUA 1:1-10

When you need protection, call PSALM 121

When you feel down and out, call ROMANS 8:18-39

When your faith needs refreshment, call HEBREWS 11

When you are lonely or afraid, call PSALM 27 (B)

When you want Christian comfort, call ROMANS 8:14-17

When God seems so very far away, call PSALM 139:1-18

When you wonder if it's love, call 1 CORINTHIANS 13

When you need help getting along with others, call ROMANS 12:3-21

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Great Deals for Kitchen Renovation

Consumers in general are having a hard time looking for the right online shopping site to search for great deals but I just found out there is such a site in the Internet that do what Googles do. The site search or more like it crawl to different websites that offers consumers different products that they want to buy. Unlike the traditional shopping site, this site I’ve recently come across gives you a wide variety of stores to choose from, hence giving you the best deals that you could ever find.

Almost everything that you can think of or want to buy they have it here in their listings like kitchen utensils and dining accessories. I’ve only been fascinated with kitchen and dining accessories because my family and I are planning on renovating and revamping our kitchen and I was really surprise to see the great variety they offer at such amazing price. A very good deal for people who are looking for great value without breaking their budget, besides saving time and money you can do online shopping at the comfort of your home.

But the thing that really impressed me besides their products and pricing is that they also give you advice and tips on the products making it easy to decide which suits your needs. They also crawl at over 200,000 online shopping stores which guarantees you that the best is just a matter of browsing thorough it and not sweating it out rushing from store to store to find the best quality deals. Why don’t you visit them now and see what I mean.

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Music Lovers Haven

Music has always been a calming experience to almost everyone whatever their genre of preference. However, buying music and going to CD shops in the mall can be a very tiring experience especially if time is a constraint. Nowadays people are always on the go, it's a good thing that I've come across Http:// where the latest and hottest new releases in the music industry is available at just a click in your computer. They also have a specially selected CD's for the avid music fan like me.

It's easy to navigate and user-friendly website with over 2000 comparison stores within the site which gives you enough options to search for the best deals on your CD purchase. What's more you can even listen to your favorite song full track for free. You won't really have a hard time deciding which artist or what kind of song you like to buy because of this feature. Besides that, there are signed memorabilia, cool prizes and giveaways that are up for grabs and you just might be the next one to get it.

Why don't you check out the site and see what I mean, I know you won't regret it. Now I won't have to go to the mall and browse stuff and stuff of CD's that don't interest me. I'll just visit musicSHOP listen to the tracks and if I like what I hear then I'll just click buy it either through their OneCart® stores or partner stores where I can make direct purchase right on the partner store sites.

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Thursday, November 6, 2008

Out of the Box

"Think outside of the box" this is a quote I've constantly hear from people who want to motivate you, move you and wish you go outside from your own comfort zone. I can sort of relate actually because most of the time I'm so contented to live within familiar settings and surroundings, old friends, old habit, routines and stuff. I'm freaking scared to live or just to even think outside of the box thinking if I live within it I be much safer. How wrong am I? How many years I've wasted trying to protect myself from the pain and in reality from growing up and seeing things at a new perspective. Just last month so many things open my eyes and let me see things at a new light. Even old friends, habits and convictions I've view it in a new angle.

Hmmm strange what a way to start a new decade of living but at least I know now that I should not be trap inside the box but rather live outside it and maximize my full potential. I'm the only one who sets limit to myself (no wonder a good friend always tells me to not limit myself), to put boundaries of what I should and should not do. But something happen, something change me that if I really want to achieve something I should not enclose myself inside it but rather embrace new territories and adventures and dare to dream big and hopefully in the end I'll win and get what I've wanted.

The goal I have for myself is so huge but the mission I believe in I know can change lives but its just so sad people I've meet are like me they want to go on living inside the box. They are not open to new ideas and they don't give themselves a chance to dream big and make it happen. Because only YOU can MAKE a difference to your life, only you can really make your DREAM happen so long as you live outside the box, have faith, believe, hardwork and a determination to WIN whatever it takes. Life is not an easy road but just don't give up just always believe of the GOLD at the end of the rainbow.

Friday, October 31, 2008

Stumbling Blocks

Sometimes in life there are obstacles and stumbling blocks so what will you do? Do you take time to lift that heavy blocks to clear the path ahead or just find another way out. Right now life seems to be a bit on hold for me nothing much to do but wait for the doctor's go signal that I can travel. It's quite frustrating in my part as I've post in my bulletin in friendster since this plan is almost over a year in waiting. I've quit my job for this but also for other reasons which I will not disclose and right now all I have is time and patience to wait for the day that I can go. This time around is also different since I've already invested too much money, imagine paying for my room beginning November and I'm not yet there. That's the thing that pressure me the most and rooms in Singa doesn't cost cheap and I bet if the doki says go the airfare would be quite expensive also. I'm always a budget traveler everywhere I go I make sure I don't spend that much amount of money but this time will be different I've really invested in terms of monetary means. I guess there must be a reason behind the delay, maybe God has plans for me and I just don't know yet. I wish I can be that patience and not frustrated and just find that other way around this stumbling block. I know these are just trials to make me stronger to help me move forward with my life when the time comes that I'll live on my own.

I've realize that its been too long I'm living on my own comfort zone, on things familiar and safe and not daring enough to make that drastic move. I've been to Singa twice already and this will be my third trip there with a lot of risk. But I really need this move and see for myself, live for myself and be totally independent and live on my own. I guess I've just been drifting through life my happy go lucky days, parties, living for the moment, contented with what I've got and not daring to take the plunge to the unknown. But now my mind is made up, my focus is clear, my dream is back and for the first time in my life I can say I've got something to really look forward, to get excited about and fire up my desires. Yes it's been a long time coming but there must be something there why all these stumbling blocks or maybe I just need to finish something here before I go there. Does that makes sense well I don't know, I just wish I could have all the patience and serenity in life during this waiting time. Wish me luck.

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Monday, October 27, 2008

Einstein Quotes

Random quotes from the genius Albert Einstein...

1. A human being is a part of a whole, called by us 'universe', a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest... a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.

2. Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.

3. Not everything that counts can be counted, and not everything that can be counted counts.

4. Imagination is more important than knowledge.

5. I want to know God's thoughts; the rest are details.

6. I am convinced that He (God) does not play dice.

7. God is subtle but he is not malicious.

8. A person starts to live when he can live outside himself.

9. Sometimes one pays most for the things one gets for nothing.

10. Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new.

11. Great spirits have often encountered violent opposition from weak minds.

12. There are two ways to live your life - one is as though nothing is a miracle, the other is as though everything is a miracle.

13. Common sense is the collection of prejudices acquired by age eighteen

14. Everything should be made as simple as possible, but not simpler.

15. Peace cannot be kept by force. It can only be achieved by understanding.

16. If A is a success in life, then A equals x plus y plus z. Work is x; y is play; and z is keeping your mouth shut.

17. Most teachers waste their time by asking questions which are intended to discover what a pupil does not know, whereas the true art of questioning has for its purpose to discover what the pupil knows or is capable of knowing.

18. Never regard your study as a duty, but as the enviable opportunity to learn to know the liberating influence of beauty in the realm of the spirit for your own personal joy and to the profit of the community to which your later work belongs.

19. Humiliation and mental oppression by ignorant and selfish teachers wreak havoc in the youthful mind that can never be undone and often exert a baleful influence in later life.

20. Human beings can attain a worthy and harmonious life only if they are able to rid themselves, within the limits of human nature, of the striving for the wish fulfillment of material kinds. The goal is to raise the spiritual values of society.

to be continued...

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Thursday, October 23, 2008

Bonjour :-)

Hello my blogger friends well its been almost a month that I haven't written a single blog, well it seems life just kind of fly by so fast. With all the things happening getting RAI therapy and recuperating afterwards, my 31st birthday by the middle of the month and then meeting people for appointment to share my mission at the same time preparing for my trip. I haven't bought the ticket yet as I haven't seen the doki still hopefully next week since there's still a little bit of radiation left. I can't stay long or blog as often as I like since I'm still under treatment. But just to let you know I've started two new blogs middle of this month and if you like this blog of mine you can also blogroll my other two blogs:

Financial Notes - this blog is my online notes on stuff I've learn in my classes as well as the company and people who taught me so much about FINANCE.

Poetry in Motion - this blog is a much personal and detailed overview of my life in a poetic style, no ramblings in there, short stories or diaries, it will be purely my own poetry creation describing my life, love, people and places that inspires me to write.

So that's all the updates for now hopefully I can blog often by November but I do miss all my online blogger friends and also my FP blogger friends. TC All Miss you much....

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Cravings of Boredom

I should have not been here, I should have stick with my routine but I guess the addicted part of me just want to come here to read perhaps. I've been tinkering with this crazy longings and cravings I have to buy something out of boredom. It's so freaking boring today but the weather is nice. It makes you want to sleep whole day and just cozy up but after awhile the boredom sets in. So here I am again writing some thoughts which I haven't got a clue, only I want something so bad.

But that something is in SM Powerbooks hehehe I like actually to buy a book yesterday from Nicholas Sparks "The Choice" but kinda shock that prices in the paperbacks are that high. I guess I've lost touch of the prices of books since I stop buying and reading one. But after I got this notion to read some novels of Nicholas Sparks so it kinda want me to buy one.

There is also a forthcoming movie from one of his novels "Nights in Rodanthe" that would be the 4th novel by the author to be in a motion picture. The first three are:

1.) Message in a Bottle (I've watch this movie with my UP fine arts friends and they cried in the movie house {they're actually males but just in tune with their softer emotions} well I did get carried away with a few scenes but I never cried throughout)

2.) The Notebook (I just watch this one in my DVD player and this one I did cry in some scenes....ahh I love the movie so much especially Ryan Gosling hehehe {kind of reminds me of someone I know in real life....same build and about the same looks I guess} but overall I love this movie so much, one of my all time favourite along with Pride and Prejudice)

3.) A Walk to remember (Again I just watch this at home its kind of nice too but I can't really relate the same way I like the previous two but I remember my bro's classmate borrow the VCD and never return it, she must have watch it over a hundredth time)

so I guess that's what my craving is if I could just buy one Nicholas Sparks novel or how about "Love in the time of Cholera" (one of Oprah's favourite by the way) guess I'm back with my book obsession....It just takes away the mundaneness of my life right now while trying to rejuvenate and heal myself in anyone want to lend me some of these books but I prefer to own them how about donate one lol

(just some of the goodies in breadtalk - FYI: I'm not paid to advertise their products lol I just love their bread)

And before I go another craving I have is to eat some bread from "Breadtalk" just thinking about it makes me crave it so much. I've eat 3 breads yesterday the "curry naan", "blueberry bread" & "fluss bread" *yum**yum**yum* just thinking about it makes me hungry.

(fluss bun - a traditional signature of bread talk with many variations)

I even forget how much I love pizza and pastries hehehe so if you haven't eaten some of their bread go to their store now and grab a bite. You won't regret it you'll feel euphoric hehehe....Anyway its a bit pricey than other bakeshop but what the that's all I'm craving today and thanks for reading my ramblings...

(curry naan - Indian bread I guess not much sure but this would be more yummy if you eat this one from the original recipe or Indian restaurant)

Tuesday, September 23, 2008


Hi my blogger friends ahh its been ten days that I haven't touch my pc would you believe that...I'm kind of shock myself but its doctor's order but I can't really get the drift why she said that because before my therapy she said there's no I give myself ten days before I'll use the pc again so here I am in case you miss me...but I don't know if anyone miss me no one leave a message in my cbox msg box I guess you're scared of my radiation lol...nah it can't contaminate you I'm not contagious actually I'm human hey not a I'm not making much sense but I miss blogging and Internet but for now I can't be much active in this cyber world gotta follow doctors order anyway just want to share something I write during the days when boredom strikes and loneliness hit like a tidal wave.... its sort of an outlet...I was kind of thinking to put this in my wordpress blog then decide I better put it here it senti moni thoughts lol

Tonight I think of you much more than any other nights. Because tonight I watch "The Lakehouse" again and somehow I finally get the drift of its charm. Why people find it so romantic because despite time and distance true love can wait and find its way into each other arms. So maybe your searching for that kind of love. Is it true can it exist for real? I don't know but it might just be true. Who knows we really can't tell what the future might bring. But if two people who love each other truly then perhaps dream can become reality and love will find a way to bring them together forever.

done: sept. 17, 2008

hehehe that's what romantic movies do to me I get take care friends I miss you all....

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Kind Blogger Award

Thank you Hazel for this Blog Award.

Here are the rules:

1. Only 5 people are allowed to receive this award.

2. Four (4) of them are followers of your blog.

3. One has to be new to your blog and live in another part of the world.

4. You must link back to who ever gave you the award. I am giving this award to who else but:

1. Amy
2. Anne
3. Bryce
4. Rej
5. Eva (but I guess naa nka ani yads)

Monday, September 8, 2008

If Only

If only reality is beautiful

If only all places could be paradise

If only life could be a bed of roses

If only poverty does not exist

If only tears does not flow

If only hunger is just a dream

If only hatred turns into love

If only war is just a state of things

If only greed and corruption cease

but reality has a bitter taste
life's far from getting there
nowhere close, nowhere near

but should not be a close illusion
of a disillusion person

but rather a burning fire
that lightens even the darkest heart
and sparks just a tiny bit of hope
inside a desperate soul

trying to reach out to something
something not quite there

an impossble dream perhaps?
Nah it could be real actually

9-8-08 5:23pm

PS: Just arrive from Simala am quite tired actually but just got inspired to write this one.... I don't know if you can call this poetry but anyway I hope you like it...I was thinking about these thoughts while travelling by bus and seeing things around me, how some part of the city lies in rumble, how there are some people and children lying helpless and hungry, then I compare it to the places I've seen with my eyes. How they're so progressive, so happy, so clean, so rich and just about everything opposite to what my eyes have seen this morning...enjoy do tell me what you think...thanks again

Monday, September 1, 2008

Blessing in disguise - 50th blog post

I can't believe this is my 50th post but of course not all original compositions, a little bit here and there, a little bit those and that and a little bits and pieces of me. Now what's my day like, wake up early in the morning to go to the office & fix the remaining paperworks, stuff & get my last pay. What was it like for me going to the office one last time. Actually its ok I know I'll be saying goodbye to it once and for all besides its very quite with no one around just two of my officemates. I ate breakfast one last time, our manager & ATE ask me to. It was yummy... what a nice way to start my day.

But, I guess it kinda paid up for over an hour & a half of waiting for the door to finally open. Ooops but I better hurry my doki could not wait that long I need to have my final check up to know if everything's fine. Hmme so what did I find out? I guess I really need to undergo that RAI option since I have plans on going somewhere but I could take option two which is to medicate it for 2-3 years with constant laboratory check.

If I opt for solution number two I need to wait 2-3 years here & what should I do with my life within that span of time. So I opt for number one & I'm going to have the treatment this Sept. 15 (wish me luck folks everything will be fine, need all the prayers) then afterwards gonna isolate myself for awhile but I can go out if I want to not just have close contacts with people.

Besides, its for your own safety, again it delays my plan am suppose to buy my ticket this month. I guess I can wait that long so long as my health's going to be fine later on. Then, the doki advice me to take it easy, relax, enjoy & stop working. Huh, did I have a premonition or something, so maybe not renewing my contract was a blessing in disguise because she said stress can also trigger the problem.

Now I'm medicating for a week with no iodine in my diet, no iodized salt, lato, guso, shells & all other food with high iodine. What a tiresome thing to do like monitoring your food intake in case you have an allergic reaction. But, I know I can get pass by same as the coming weeks when I'll sleep alone, have my own plate, spoon & fork, do laundry & all those stuff I must do alone. Wish me luck & hopefully afterwards I'll know why things is happening as they are because I always know in every cloudy sky there's always a sunshine afterwards, every rainbow after the rain.

So I guess I'll be spending my 31st birthday in Cebu & all those time was thinking of spending it on a cable car candlelie dinner (must be awesome). Hey its not that bad just gotta need something to do while I'm waiting for time & things to finally settle in. Make it productive, make it worthwhile & make it beautiful. Since, life indeed is beautiful despite the crosses & problems we all carry everyday what we need is ask HIS help and say I can't carry it alone God please unload some of the burdens.

Which remind me of the mass I've attended this afternoon, the priest says that in every trial & ordeal you've been through don't lose hope or faith in HIM, cause afterwards you'll reap your reward & that's what I've always been thinking about despite all the things that's bothering me. I know I will taste that pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, all I need is time & patience that in HIS time all things will come to be.

Friday, August 29, 2008

Need to be next to you

I've run from these feelings for so long
telling my heart I didn't need you
pretending I was better off alone
but I know that it's just a lie
so afraid to take a chance again
so afraid of what I'd feel inside

but I need to be next to you (need to be next to you)
oh I, oh I
I need to share every breath with you (share every breath with you)
oh I, oh I
I need to know I can see you smiling each morning
look into your eyes each night
for the rest of my life

here with you, near with you
oh I
I need to be next to you
need to be – next to you

right here with you is right where I belong
I'll lose my mind if I can't see you
without you there is nothing in this life
that would make life worth living for
I can't bear the thought of you not here
I can't fight what I feel anymore

'cause I need to be next to you (need to be next to you)
oh I, oh I
I need to share every breath with you (share every breath with you)
oh I, oh I
I need to know I can see you smiling each morning
look into your eyes each night
for the rest of my life

here with you, near with you
oh I
I need to be next to you

I need to have your heart next to mine
for all the time
hold you for all my life
I need to be next to you

I need to be next to you (to be next to you)
oh I, oh I
need to be, need to be next to you
share every breath with you
oh, oh I
I need to feel you in my arms, babe (oh...)
in my arms, babe (oh I...)
I need to be next to you
oh I, oh I
(oh I...)

PS: wla lang amards2x ani nga song...was just thinking about my life...

Ciao First Page

An hour more to go before my job here in FP is officially over. What would I miss the most well I definitely miss the friends I've met here especially the FP writers. It's been four months and within that span of time I've meet real people, people who I know will really be there for you when you needed somebody to lean on. Actually, I'm thankful I've found this job; it's a dream actually, because eversince I can remember, I always wanted to write. Nope I don't get recognize by what I do its more on ghost writing, copy writing or call it whatever you want. It's not an easy path to take, I have no experience whatsoever & I've yet to learn the proper ways & techniques to polish my writing, but that experience alone taught me many lessons. The first few months was hard because I was so used by the easy way of life, my carefree lazy days were over, but I know sooner or later I've gotta learn to get out from that slumber.

Indeed, it was nice to make new friends again, go out and party as I used to do, drink some, unwind some & talk some just the simple art of socializing. I've even went to the beach & wear my two-piece hahaha wouldn't you believe I've been wondering for years if I could ever wear one again. Eversince, my accident two years ago I don't like to go to the beach anymore & wear a two-piece, but with them, everything was so easy. They accepted me for what I am, they see me at my lowest point, & even me at my worst yet they become my friend.

Life in FP is not a bed of roses either I've had my share of hurt, pain, disappointments, but then that's part of life you can't really please anyone, though God knows how hard I try. I try to like the job I've been transfer to, I try to give it the best that I can, though at times I stare blankly at my monitor too clueless what to do. But, at least one way or another they did appreciate my effort. I don't claim my job was perfect that's the very best that I can give granting its not my ideal job not like in writing no matter how stressful, no matter how draining, no matter how tiresome but at the end of the day you'll know you've accomplish something. It gives you great pleasure because you love your job but if you don't love your job you'll feel the clueless & useless.

Now it’s an ending of another chapter, but I know it’s also the beginning of a new one. I know all along that I won't stay long. I know its only a stop over to something that I really wanna do but I know deep within I'm gonna miss the friends I have found -- the FP WRITERS and also the friends I have in the Link builders department. Thanks for everything, the experience, the lessons both good & bad & the friendship that I'll treasure. The memories in the old building would be the one I would treasure most especially all those trips to acoustic jams, bars, clubs & beaches. Ok I'll end it here I'm being too melodramatic lol...

done between 6:50 to 7:30

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Full circle

Hello blog its been awhile haven't been writing my thoughts that come? Oh well I'm just too preoccupied with the mundane things of living, again trying to sort things out for myself & trying to stay healthy? hmm that's yet to be seen...been to the doki today & I had another lab test ahhh I get used to the needles piercing through my veins...its not really a biggie thing just a short stop & trial, a wake up call for me to take care of my body. What have I been doing with it, am I punishing it for things I don't like within my world but then something happen to awaken me of this slumber. It was a week ago when I got sick with fever & my head just feels like exploding, it hurts to even stand up. I guess it was all an accumulation of the bad feelings I have within, conflict with work, confusion of what I really felt for a certain person. Then it hit me like brick that if I get better with my fever I swear I'll change everything I've perceive so far besides if I continue with this negativity I'll probably delay my plans. And guess what it seems life's really turning peachy & I'm feeling a lot better than what I felt two weeks ago. The confusion & conflict they've gone away for sure... actually I'm quite excited I'm just crossing my fingers things will turn out really great. Nahhh I still haven't bought my ticket will only do that after I've cleared things with my doki so for now all I have to do is wait. Wait for things to finally unravel before me -- my plans, my dreams & my love (hmmmm cge nlng gud pwd raman mangarap) to come in full circle this month.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Winning Friends

Winning Friends - Why Do We Need Them?

Thanks for the sweetness of Melissa who gave this award. Indeed, we are very lucky to have been able to make friends out of blogging and we should be thankful in every opportunity we encounter. "A hug is worth a thousand words, a friend is worth more."

We need friends for many reasons,all throughout the season.

We need friends to comfort uswhen we are sad,

and to have fun with us when we are glad.

We need friends to give us good advice,

We need someone we can count on,and treat us nice.

We need friends to remember usone we have passedsharing memories that will always last.

Spread the poem of friendship.1. Everyday Life 2. Words of Love 3. Sheng's Simple Thoughts 4. My Life's Rollercoaster Ride 5. Madz Life's Diary 6. Madz Wedding in Mauritius 7. Youthful Voices 8 Follow your sense you adventure 9 Beautiful Life... YOU

Now, I am passing this on to my these bloggers who have become my really good friends:

8. and all my blogger friends who treasure me as a friends

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Theory of Life and Love

by: Albert Einstein

Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love,
We fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us.
We miss out on so many beautiful things simply because we
allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.

Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words,
For you will find rewarding happiness,
Not with the man you love
But with the man who loves you more.

The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance
Far enough to allow the person to grow
But ever too far to feel the love within your being.

To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving,
It only means that you allow that person to find his
own happiness without expecting him to come back.

Letting go is not just setting the other person free,
But is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness,
Hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart.

Do not let the bitterness take away your strength
And weaken your faith,
And never allow pain to dishearten you;
But rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it.

You may find peace in loving someone from a distance
Not expecting something in return.
But be careful, for this can sustain life but can
never give enough room for us to grow.

We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past,
But real peace and happiness come
Only with open acceptance of what reality is today.
There comes a time in our lives when we chase upon someone so nice
And beautiful and we just find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person.
This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives
And eventually consumes our thoughts and actions.

The sad part of it is when we begin to
realize that this person feels nothing
more for us than just a friendship.

We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer,
But in the end, our efforts are still unrewarded
And we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don't have to forget someone you love.
What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality
Without being bitter or sorry for yourself.
Believe me, you would be better off
giving that dedication and love to
someone more deserving.

Don't let your heart run your life,
Be sensible and let your mind speak for itself.

Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.
Always remember that if you lose someone today,
It means that someone better is coming tomorrow.
If you lose love that doesn't mean you failed in love.

Cry if you have to, but make sure that tears wash away the hurt
And the bitterness that the past has left with you.
Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you.
And when it does, pray that it may be the love
that will stay and last a lifetime.

There are two ways to live your life:

One is as though nothing is a miracle.
The other is as though everything is a miracle.

There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive.
No past so bitter that love cannot accept.
And no love so little that we cannot
start all over with

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Monday, August 11, 2008

Restless & bothered

The plan was to write a very long post about the things that happen today. I should have not make it a big deal but I don't know why I was hurt in the process. I guess it's just me showing off my very sensitive side. I thought I've forgotten that emotion buried somewhere deep within but just today I've found out otherwise. Geeez its not so bad but I don't know what happen when tears almost flow down my face, what an embarrassing moment, too glad no one notice. I guess you can call it anything you want but its just that plain and simple depending on your perception. I know tomorrow's another day much better perhaps than today & thanks for the advice of my mama & sistah to not mind so much. I was just carried away with a very strong emotion. But anyway I guess its time for me to move on to go on another journey & leave the people I've met along the way. It was really fun meeting them & I'll always put them in a special place in my heart, but I guess I was not meant to stay longer I guess I need to continue on my journey. But for now I'll swallow my pride, my pain, my hurt & everything in between & go on doing what I've always done. I know I maybe weak in terms of physical appearance but deep inside I'm strong because I know God is watching over me & never forsaking me in times of hard moments. I've been through far worse situation before than this shallowness so I know I can get by. I'll just tell myself its just a couple of weeks more and tada...well for now its goodnight its almost midnight....don't mind my sorry thoughts

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Gilbeys - my baby

hip hop gilbeys

rolling on the mat

dirty face inside the truck

ready to leave...when's my next flight?

I used to have long hair but I trimmed it down so you can see my eyes

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Look what they've done to me...I look like human...what????

My dog Gilbeys is going away for a week because his a big boy now hehehe but I'm gonna miss him so for now I'll just post some pictures of him

Brillante Award

Thanks Anne for this award. It's really appreciated. Sorry it take so long to grab the award kinda busy!

The above recipients of the Brillante Weblog are welcomed to put the Logo on their personal blogs and have the honor of passing this award to seven other bloggers.Here are the rules for passing on the award:

l. Put the logo on your blog

2. Add a link to the person who awarded you.

3. Nominate at least seven other blogs

4. Add links to those blogs on your blog

Leave a message for your nominee on their blog.

Now I would like to pass the award to the following bloggers:
Sand & everything under the Sun,, Avid Thinker, My comfort zone, Chronicles of boredom, Hodge Podge, Your Ecstacy ....guys I hope you grab my awards heheheh