Sunday, December 11, 2011

Life's Journey I




I don't know what happen few months ago call it unmet expectation... expecting too much from person or whatever mistakes he committed (which I can't quite pinpoint) but even until now just thinking about it brought me to tears... so much disappointment I guess from a project/people who I thought I could help and help me as well. Yesterday was the last straw it brought back memories couple of months ago why I decided to give it all up and guess what after giving up that something I emerge myself into a so-called solitude/depression (drowning myself in unlimited korean series day in and day out) no plans, no directions, no aspiration, no dreams just barely existing.Although I know the harm of falling into a depress state but I can't help what I feel that time but thank God the cycle was broken when my cousin invited me to visit Mindanao. Oh what a reprive that was from that tortured state I was renew, refresh, recharge and alive but not until I find out the state of my health last October.

After coming back from Mindanao I thought to visit my doc thinking oh the meds would have workout by now since many months have past but only to findout otherwise so we (doki & I) agree I'll undergo an operation. I guess too much stressful thoughts is not good for my health. I was in a state of denial coz for so long I postpone that operation I seek alternative ways just to make me better but then sometimes one can't fight the inevitable so I succumb to it and have my operation last November.I suddenly find the courage to brave it all out, to get it over and be done with it. From the first day of checking in the hospital even the time I'm on my way to have my operation I felt no fear and not even a single tear fell from my face (which by the way is quite the opposite feeling I have just few weeks before my operation cause last October I sometimes find myself crying thinking of the forthcoming operation - I guess I was in denial state).

Looking back at my stay in the hospital I can deduce I was being brave but not until the time my father brought of opening a foodshop in the province and ask me to manage it and for no reason at all I really burst into tears and the dam was broken. My aunt and mother was so shock why I was crying and the nurses never said a thing but I know maybe they thought I was crying coz I was to undergo a blood transfusion and I'm scared. But what they didn't know I was battling an emotional battle, a hurt I've felt after that project fall to the ground and I guess can't help but be disappointed with the people around it as well.

What I didn't realize is that the hurt runs deep and it was only yesterday when a certain event trigger that hurt and disappointment I felt couple of months ago and you know what the funny thing is I burst to tears once again. Funny in a way that I've brave out a major operation and never shed a tear and here I am just a minor event crying in outrage. I do try so hard in the deepest part of my heart to forgive that person since it's christmas and everything. And one should not hold grudges and unforgiveness since everyone of us are only humans bound to fail and fall short of others expectation. But I guess you can also forgive my weakness that I'm also a person bound to be ruled out by too much emotion and hurt. Well I know in time everything will have its healing and forgiveness but dang it all I was just too freaking emotional yesterday and this kind of emotion is not a welcome visitor for someone who is also trying to heal from a major operation.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Just Another Woman in Love



I'm strong, I'm sure, I'm in control, a lady with a plan
Believing that life is a neat little package I hold in my hand
I've got it together, they call me "the girl who knows just what to say and do"
Still I fumble and fall, run into the wall, 'cause when it comes to you, I'm

CHORUS
Just another woman in love, a kid out of school
A fire out of control, just another fool
You touch me and I'm weak, I'm a feather in the wind
And I can't wait to feel you touching me again
With you I'm just another woman, just another woman in love

So pardon me if I should stare and tremble like a child
That "wanting you" look all over your face is driving me wild
I'm just what you make me, can't wait 'till you take me and set all my feelin's free
I know that you can, so come be my man, tonight I wanna be

CHORUS X 2 with FADE in middle of the second

PS: Just love the pictures in this song... The notebook is my all time favorite movie....

Afraid of Love



At this rate, I might go crazy
No actually I already am
might be crazy about you
At this rate, I might die
No actually without you
I might not be able to live

An impossible love in this world
Someone I absolutely shouldn't love
The more I turn away from you
the more I miss you
I'm scared of this constantly frightening love
I even miss your shadow
I'm afraid that you're the one

I should have just passed you by
I shouldn't love you
The more I turn away from you
the more I miss you
I'm scared of this constantly frightening love
I even miss your shadow
I'm afraid that it's you

Will you teach me what to do
What should I do
to escape this fate?
I love you, I love you
I love you to death
even if my heart hurt like crazy,
even if my tears don't stop,
even if I can't love you
I love you

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Shine like a Star


We all have different path to take so don’t be just a shadow of someone else’s life. Shine like you ought to be and see how beautiful life will be.

Life is not meant to be live as a mediocre imitation or cheap copycat of someone else. That’s why God give us hopes, dreams, ambitions, capabilities, talents, gifts and core values so that we will shine more and be less of a shadow.

Life is about pursuing our dreams, freeing our soul and following the passion of our heart. It is one big canvass where we are the artist, creating, molding, sculpting and shaping it to how we envision our life would be.

It is a merging of your heart and your soul as you slowly start to find the path you ought to take. Finding your path doesn’t mean arriving at a particular destination but rather it is a continuous journey slowly unraveling everyday then discovering and reveling of new aspects within ourselves.

But if we live for a moment to be just shadow then we are not living the life that we should lived or partaking the path that we should take. So free yourself from the shadows and cobwebs that’s hindering your growth and realizing your potential.

Just break free, let go and shine like a star then see the great lights emerging from within. No more living in the shadows nor there be dark clouds in the horizon to dampen a free spirited soul and a heart full of passion.

July 11, 2011 @ 7:18am (after awhile I suddenly feel a little bit inspire to write something blame it on the status I coined in my fb)

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Benefits of Honey


Honey is not only delicious and flavorful but it is also packed with lots of health benefits.

For one thing if you're feeling a little bit under the weather and would like some energy booster put a teaspoon of honey to your favorite drinks like coffee, milk or tea. It's not only a good substitute for sugar but it's a great ENERGY BOOSTER.

Honey is full of antioxidants and anti-bacterial that can help our body fight diseases from the common and not so common illnesses. It boast our immune system as well as cleanse our body from harmful ailments. It aids in tissue healing and fights infection. So yes honey is a good IMMUNE SYSTEM BUILDER.

Aside from that Honey is a good remedy for natural ailments, it cures infections, eye conjunctivities, diarhea, skin infections, cough remedy, heals cut and burn, aids in sleeping and many more.

The wonder of this natural food supplement is so vast but yet it is the most understated food today.

Friday, April 22, 2011

How do you heal a broken heart?




I can't believe what i just heard

Could it be true

Are you the girl I thought I knew

The one who promised me her love

Where did it go

Does anybody ever know


Chorus:

How do you heal a broken heart

That feels like it will never beat this much again

Oh no

I just can't let go

How do you heal a broken heart

That feels like it will never love this much again

Oh no

Tonight I'll hold what could be right

Tomorrow I'll pretend to let you go


And were you ever what you seemed

Or was I a fool who fell in love

With his own dream

And now you say you want to leave

Start a new life today

Those words I thought you'd never say


Chorus:

Tonight I'll hold what could be right

Tomorrow I'll pretend to

Wake and put it all behind me

And find that I have finally found


A new life

In my soul

And find that I know how to let you go

You go


Chorus:

Tonight I'll hold what could be right

Tomorrow i'll pretend to

Wake and put it all behind me

And find that I know how to let you go

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Some signs to know if he likes you


Examine his body language. If he likes you, you may see that he rarely turns his back to you, often leans towards you, and also looks at you a lot. If he slouches his shoulders when near you, he's romantic and cares about what you have to say. If he points his shoulders and pelvis towards you while sitting, he is definitely feeling something for you.

Notice his eye contact. If he likes you, he may either look away quickly if he is shy, or he'll try to catch your eye and hold it or make faces. This can be uncomfortable if you don't like him. If you feel like you have held eye contact just a fraction of a second longer than you would with anyone else, or if he looks away quickly, then there is something there. When he's around you and he says/does something funny and everyone around laughs, his eyes will flicker towards you for a second to see if you laughed, too.

Listen to what he's saying. If he likes you, and he's nervous, he'll probably start talking about himself. Many times, guys feel the need to prove themselves- especially if you talk about another guy in his company.

Be aware of touching. He might put his hand on your arm when he laughs, and won't move his leg if it happens to touch yours, or he may hug you for small things - all are good signs of a guy liking you, unless he's a bit of a "playboy" who flirts with a lot of girls. See if he uses any of the tricks in How to Touch a Girl, and see if he uses them more with you than with anyone else.

Watch for him showing interest in things you like and do. For example, if you like a certain genre of music that he likes as well, he may suggest bands or artists for you to listen to. Another example, if you introduce him to a TV show that he didn't really know about and that becomes his new favorite thing, thats a sign that he likes you.

Look to see if he imitates you. If he mimics you, he probably likes you, such as if you move to another table, he'll go with you. (I've had a guy who liked me mimic me before, so I know this is one thing)

Acknowledge any compliments that come your way. If you do your hair or makeup differently one day, and the guy notices, that's a very good sign that he likes you. Most guys won't notice, and if they do, they won't say anything unless they're into you. Anything like, "You look nice today," "I like that shirt," or even "Did you do your hair differently today? It looks nice," are all indicators that he could be interested in you.

If he talks to you on a Social Networking site. If he chats with you often he may like you. He could also just be talkative and friendly so don't assume he's into you for chatting. He may put 'x' on the end of everything he says to you. That might not necessarily mean he likes you. It could just mean that you are good friends.

More than 98% of the time, if a guy likes you, then he is going to be around you. It doesn't matter if he is not talking directly to you or even blatantly ignoring you. Even if he is making fun of you, picking fights or punching you in the arm and then running away. One way or another, no matter what he is doing, he is doing it around you, and I guarantee you, this is true for men of all ages.

Ladies, I also think that it's important that you understand that most men, no matter how old we get, never grow out of this. On the flipside of this coin, no matter what a guy is doing, if he is not doing it around you, typically he has no interest in you. Even if what he is doing are exactly like the examples above, if he is not around you more times than not, he probably doesn't have any feelings for you.


Source: http://www.wikihow.com/Know-if-a-Guy-Likes-You and http://www.girlsaskguys.com/Articles/Flirting/Signs-He-Likes-You-Signs-He-Doesnt.html

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Hard Habit to Break



Note: I usually love making miniclips video but never try the windows movie maker so here's the first one I've made using windows software... enjoy

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Longue vie blog


One day I wake up and decided to revive this blog I mean it's not dying or something but it lack sparks and life. It's just out there drifting merely surviving but never really get the spirit it used to have. Well this is not some kind of a personal thingy where I put my heart and soul to it but mind you it used to have personality and once in awhile when I feel like it I tell you my soul and what's going on with my life. But for a couple of months or maybe it reach a year I've lost that sense of pouring out my thoughts and feelings into words. I thought I've out grown this love for writing and creative thoughts but I guess it just lies buried somewhere deep within me. This need to share feelings and ideas, to inspire, to motivate, to hope, to dream and just to simply be the person who can reach other people's life through their own experiences. I'm not perfect nor though I have a perfect life as what some people may perceive by just looking at the outside. Look more closely and you can see the scars both physically and emotionally of the battles I've fought within myself. Sometimes I've win and there are times I lost but it's alright because life is not about winning it's about relating and learning and making things better along the way. Life is not a bed of roses as cliche goes but for me Life is still the most beautiful thing we could ever have. Live, Love and Eat as what Wolfgang Puck always says or you could Eat, Pray, Love as what Julia Roberts did in her movie. It's up to you it's your life and you should be in control and be happy with it. As for this site it's a long time coming but it's getting there so come along with me and welcome aboard to the revival of this blog.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Kanlungan



Pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon?

Natatandaan mo pa ba
Nang tayong dal'wa ang unang nagkita?
Panahon ng kamusmusan
Sa piling ng mga bulaklak at halaman
Doon tayong nagsimulang
Mangarap at tumula

Natatandaan mo pa ba
Inukit kong puso sa punong mangga
At ang inalay kong gumamela
Magkahawak-kamay sa dalampasigan
Malayang tulad ng mga ibon
Ang gunita ng ating kahapon

Ang mga puno't halaman
Ay kabiyak ng ating gunita
Sa paglipas ng panahon
Bakit kailangan ding lumisan?

Pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon?

Natatandaan mo pa ba
Nang tayong dal'wa ang unang nagkita?
Panahon ng kamusmusan
Sa piling ng mga bulaklak at halaman
Doon tayong nagsimulang
Mangarap at tumula

Natatandaan mo pa ba
Inukit kong puso sa punong mangga
At ang inalay kong gumamela
Magkahawak-kamay sa dalampasigan
Malayang tulad ng mga ibon
Ang gunita ng ating kahapon

Ngayon ikaw ay nagbalik
At tulad ko rin ang iyong pananabik
Makita ang dating kanlungan
Tahanan ng ating tula at pangarap
Ngayon ay naglaho na
Saan hahanapin pa?

Lumilipas ang panahon
Kabiyak ng ating gunita
Ang mga puno't halaman
Bakit kailangang lumisan?

Pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon?

Natatandaan mo pa ba
Nang tayong dal'wa ang unang nagkita?
Panahon ng kamusmusan
Sa piling ng mga bulaklak at halaman
Doon tayong nagsimulang
Mangarap at tumula

Natatandaan mo pa ba
Inukit kong puso sa punong mangga
At ang inalay kong gumamela
Magkahawak-kamay sa dalampasigan
Malayang tulad ng mga ibon
Ang gunita ng ating kahapon

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/n/noel_cabangon/#share

Monday, February 14, 2011

You change my life in a Moment



The nights the sky was filled with clouds
My worried mind was filled with fear
I couldn't count all the lonely hours
Spent with memories and tears
I never thought i would see the day
When i could throw all my sorrow away
But then you came and you showed me the way
You have made all those times disappear

Chorus:
You changed my life in a moment
And i'll never be the same again
You changed my life in a moment
And it's hard for me to understand
With the touch of your hand in a moment in time
All my sorrow is gone (is gone... is gone... is gone...)

I never thought that i could change
Could change so much in so many ways
I'm still surprised when i look in my mirror
To see that i still look the same

Chorus:
You changed my life in a moment
And i'll never be the same again
You changed my life in a moment
And it's hard for me to understand
With the touch of your hand in a moment in time
All my sorrow is gone

(you changed my life in a moment)
You changed my life
(and i'll never be the same again)
I'll never be the same
You changed my life in a moment
And it's hard for me to understand
With the touch of your hand in a moment in time
All my sorrow is gone

(you changed my life in a moment)
Gone... gone...
In a moment in time
All my sorrow is gone...