Friday, May 30, 2008

Vorbe Care Dor

La` noapte`am sa plec
Caci` nu mi`e usor`
Cand simt iarasi patul rece si gol
Si glasul tau` ca un ecou

O noua` zi
Tu n`ai sa stii
Privesc` spre cer si-ntreb de ce
N`au nici un` rost` regretele
Iar ma` indrept spre` nicaieri

Vorbe`..vorbe care tot mai dor
Vorbe spuse` prea usor`
In diminetile` tarzii

Vorbe..vorbe` care` tot mai dor
Vorbe spuse prea` usor
Mai poate fi ceva`ntre noi
Sunt doar iluzii`

La noapte`am sa plec
Mi`e greu dar incerc`
Vreu din` mintea mea` cumva sa sterg
Vorbe`n care nu mai` cred

In fiinta` mea e o` lupta grea
Sa nu privesc` in urma` mea

Si bratele larg le`am deschis`
Ma las purtat de vant prin` noapte

Vorbe..vorbe care tot` mai dor
Vorbe spuse prea usor
In` diminetile tarzii`

Vorbe`..vorbe care tot mai dor
Vorbe spuse prea` usor
Mai poate` fi ceva`ntre noi
Sunt doar iluzii`

Vorbe vorbe vorbe`...oooooo
Vorbe` vorbe` vorbe...oooooo
Vorbe vorbe` vorbe...oooooo
Vorbe` vorbe vorbe...

Vorbe..vorbe care tot mai dor
Vorbe spuse prea usor
In` diminetile` tarzii

Vorbe..vorbe` care tot mai dor
Vorbe` spuse prea usor`
Mai poate fi ceva`ntre noi
Sunt doar iluzii`

Vorbe..vorbe care tot mai dor
Vorbe spuse prea usor
In diminetile` tarzii

Vorbe..vorbe` care` tot mai dor
Vorbe spuse prea usor`
Mai poate` fi ceva`ntre noi`
Sunt` doar iluzii

English translation:

Words That Hurt

Tonight I'll leave
Because it's not easy for me
When I feel again the cold and empty bed and your voice like an echo

A new day
You won't know
I watch the sky and I wonder why
The regrets have no point
I go towards nowhere again

Words...words that still hurt
Words said to easily
The late mornings

Words...words that still hurt
Words said to easily
Could there still be something between us
They're just illusions

Tonight I'll leave
It's hard but I'm trying
I want to remove somehow from my mind
Words that I don't believe anymore

There's a hard battle in my being
Not to look behind

And I've widely open my arms
I've left myself to be carried through the night by the wind

Words...words that still hurt
Words said to easily
The late mornings

Words...words that still hurt
Words said to easily
Could there still be something between us
They're just illusions

Words words words...oooooh
Words words words...oooooh
Words words words...oooooh
Words words words...

Ref: Words...words that still hurt
Words said to easily
The late mornings

Words...words that still hurt
Words said to easily
Could there still be something between us
They're just illusions

Ref: Words...words that still hurt
Words said to easily
The late mornings

Words...words that still hurt
Words said to easily
Could there still be something between us
They're just illusions


Forgiveness is sometimes hard to give especially if you've been hurt so deep by the person you love. The one whom you think your world revolves around that you envision yourself to spend a lifetime together. Then, out of nowhere they suddenly disappear leaving you behind with a lot of questions and a hurt so deep. Yes indeed it is time that heals the wound and make you move on to forget the memories, the pain of the betrayal and maybe look up to a new future. The future that could possibly bring a new love, a new hope, a new beginning but what if suddenly the person who cause you all those hurt suddenly reappears.

It is a dilemma especially if you are starting to pick up the pieces in your life and the wounds started healing. You thought you have forgotten him and have moved on but why do just a mere hello turn your inside to jitters. Suddenly you are back at where you are before that you can't quite understand why you're feeling happy, when you should have been angry in the first place, then to feel suddenly as if nothing happens. The hurt and pain you've felt just evaporated in thin air. You hold on to your pride, to your anger, to your betrayal, to your hurt but only to hold unto it in vain. Because loving breaks barriers, heals all your pain and makes you hope again that maybe this time around love will come to stay. Since in reality we can't resist the temptation to open our heart again to the one we love.

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Tag by Eva

1. What do you want for your birthday?
hmmm maybe go to Singapore hopefully lang unta kay cge ka postpone
2. Who will be your next kiss?
hmmm ako nlng na
3. When was the last time you went to the mall?
i think yesterday to met my classmate doreen
4. Are you wearing socks right now?
nah nagtsinelas rko...
5. How did you spend your summer?
ohh one time rako naka laag sa kawasan...kay nabusy ani akong bago work sauns... i need a life najud
6. Have you been to the cinema in the last 5 days?
wla jud dugay nko wla ka watch ug movie
7. What was the last thing you had to drink?
water, coffee sagulan ug milo
8. What are you wearing right now?
jeans and shirt
9. What was your last purchase?
i think shoes manguro to
10. What was the last food you ate?
baboy manto nga guisado
11. Who would be the person you call if you were up in the middle of the night and couldn’t sleep?
God kay wla manko kiki now hehehe
12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
i think a new blouse
13. Do you have a pet?
yup gilbeys and shotglass
14. What made you laugh in the last 5 days?
talking to my duckie
15. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
The Carribean...=) = gnahan jud bitaw ko carribean yadz
16. What is the last thing you purchased online?
my domain name hay duha najud intawn saun
17. One thing you hate about yourself?
shorty ambisyosa baya ko ug taas nga laki
18. Do you miss anyone?
i dont know...maybe
19. What are your plans for the day?
laag guro kay payday man hehehe
20. Last person you msg’d?
workmates sa gmail
21. Ever gone camping?
yes camping sa beach lol pwd bana
22. Are you a good student in school?
nope...cge lang ko absent....
23. What do you know about the (your) future?
my future wla ko kay dli ko mind reader hehehe
24. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
yup just a cologne
25. Where is/are your best friend/s right now?
they're all over the world....! korek ka dyan hehehe

I tag all my friends here....FYI: this my first time magapil2x sa mga

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Into your loving arms

Carry me into your arms
and never let me go
When the world has turn
its back on me
When there seems to be no hope
Don’t ever let me go
for your arms strengthens me
in times I felt weak
and seems I can’t go on
but you were always there
never leaving me
Your arms shelters me
from the coldness and hate
giving me courage and peace
I could never ask for more
than those arms of yours
A love so true and real
that arms that stretch
on the cross so I can be save
from a lifetime of sin and deceit
Each day that pass
I’m grateful for your arms
that gave me a second chance
to live my life again
into your loving arms

written by moi 12-2-07 9:30pm

PS: I’ve been thinking, meditating, contemplating, wishing, hoping I can write something like this. It’s been a long time coming but finally a poem for my one savior Jesus Christ who loves me more than anyone could ever love me. This a new poem and a first for me to dedicate this one to God. I realize I want to put this poem here cause without God’s guidance I wouldn’t really find the one I am looking for. Hope you like this one and put some comments. Thanks :-)


Our life is compose of a series of moments, not the bigger picture, not the drama, not the search for total bliss nor the happily ever after. Oftentimes we want to stay in a certain situation forever that we wish it to never end but as there is beginning so there must be an ending. Why can’t we stay in a particular situation forever, why must it have to move on and change because for me the beauty of life is not the bigger picture or happily after. The beauty lies in the moments. Sometimes we forget to savour the moment we rush so fast to things that needs to be done, to goals that needs to be achieve, to problems need to be fix and so on and so forth but we forget to just sit and relax and see and enjoy that moment for once its gone you can never really go back to it.

There are moments that I savor so much that I keep them close to my heart and I thank all those people who share those moments with me for without them it wouldn’t be as memorable. I have my moments of joy, moments of tears, moments of triump, moments of englighten, moments of great friendship, moments of love, moments of letting go, moments of surprise, moments of lost, moments of betrayal, moments of being special that I thank God everyday of my life for the moments that made my day beautifully bless. It might not be much to some, I might not be as successful nor as achiever as other people but I’m grateful for the friends I’ve met along the way who share special moments with me and for the men who share a bit of their lives I also thank you for that moment when you’ve also been a part of my life.

My life and love

I'm sitting here thinking about you

My thoughts run wild at times

Longing to touch and hold you

To feel your heart beating with mine

To see our souls dance in rhythm

with the music of our hearts

But it is all just in my head

cause you are there and I’m here

Waiting for the time

When we’ll finally be one

My love, My life

written: September 20, 2006 12:40am

PS: I almost forgot this poem so glad I get to read this while surfing my poetry notes. This dedicated to my Tk who is now gone from my life too we’ll I hope he is doing fine.


It's been a month since I started this new job and now the decision really depends on the management. I've survived 10 hours of work per day at the same time studying my masters degree. But 10 hours is not a new schedule for me I used to work 12-14 hours a day including Sundays. I'm not workaholic its just I'm always dedicated to every job I have to the point that I was awarded a certificate of perfect attendance in my past company. It's quite funny though because if I'm studying I would have used up all the allowable absences. I remember one time my professor drop me in my MIS class because I have accumulated 5 absences but I complain to him that he cannot drop me since there is 7 days allowable absences so I pass the subject.

This is a very challenging job for me because you need to think all the time not like when I'm doing transcription works where you just listen then encode, nevertheless it is still a hard job. To sum it up there is no easy way out if you are slave to the corporate world, but we would not make progress if we will not work. Right now opportunities have come knocking on my door I've finally passed my board exam for teachers. I have a pending application to work in Department of Education but I was having second thoughts because I like my new job now no matter how tiring and hot our office.

Since, there is no aircondition in my workplace because the owner of the building did not inform our boss that their transformer cannot accommodate all the electricity we need to make our office function well like have proper ventilation and aircondition. Talk about deceiving our bosses and we really need aircondition because the computers life span will shorten due to many hours of hot climate.

Indeed, it is really hot here in the Philippines. But the management is contemplating on transferring our location to another building. I hope it will be soon cause your brains cannot function well if it's too hot lol....Sometimes I'm not making sense but I just want to write something since its my monthsary here at my new job....

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Signs of Burnout

Just some tips on how you, your family or friends will know if you are in danger of burnout. Here are early warning signs...

1. Chronic fatigue - exhaustion, tiredness, a sense of being physically run down
2. Anger at those making demands
3. Self-criticism for putting up with the demands
4. Cynicism, negativity, and irritability
5. A sense of being besieged
6. Exploding easily at seemingly inconsequential things
7. Frequent headaches and gastrointestinal disturbances
8. Weight loss or gain
9. Sleeplessness and depression
10. Shortness of breath
11. Suspiciousness
12. Feelings of helplessness
13. Increased degree of risk taking

for details visit the original articles

Thursday, May 15, 2008


Enjoy life every second of it because once its gone you can never get it back.

My uncle died a tragic death which is so sad then I find out that something’s wrong with my body. Nothing drastic that medicine can’t heal but I suddenly realize how precious life is.

Some people spend so much time in the dark, wallowing in self pity, blaming God for their misfortunes and just plainly wasting time doing nothing. Slowly tearing your life apart by useless anger, hatred, vices and all kinds of negativities.

I didn’t mean to sound self-righteous because I used to live life like some people, carelessly drifting into the abyss, so lonely and confuse only to find out later on that hope still exist, my dream is still alive and love painted a colorful hue into my darken soul.

Suddenly things started to fit into place. The things I wanted the most came knocking on my door and sunshine starts to enter the windows of my soul. But life is not a bed of roses because somewhere, somehow there will be trials, heartaches, pain but its up to you how you deal with it and conquer it all so that in the end there will always be a smile on your face as if to say I’ve stand tall through it all.

No matter what live and love life. Never ever regret every moment of your life.

PS: hehehe nagamards c ako after spending almost 12 hours in the lab and doc’s clinic….lol…wla lang gud feeler ko lang mag emo mode written May 5, 2008

Better in Time

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remaind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: X2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

PS: Although Leona Lewis Bleeding in Love is also good I like this song cause I can sort of relate hehehe

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PS:These are the websites I have worked so far. This is a collaborative work I write some of the contents. I just put it here for my referrals. I wish I have make these sites but I did not hehehe wish ko lang talaga dream paman nko mag web designer gud hehehe

Random Poetry


Here in my heart is where you belong
Here in my life is where you will stay
Two worlds finally collided
Forever till eternity

11-14-06 around 12:30am



Every moment of my waking day
is filled with thoughts of you
Every second of the hour
filled my heart with joy
Every night as I go to sleep
I thank the Lord above
Everyday of my life
that he gave you to me
For baby my life is not the same
with you here in my life :)

written 11-14-06 at 10:51am for Tk

Birthday Thoughts

Just finish celebrating my bday yesterday and it was small and simple :) Although I said it was just another bday its actually not since so many things happen to me this year. Some I would really love to forget to oblivion and never resurface in this fertile brain of mine but every event in our lives has a meaning has a purpose maybe mine was to get closer to God and to see my life in a different angle than my preconceived notion before. Searching and hoping to find meaning in my life and have peace within myself not knowing that by turning away from God I create great confusion and so many roads should have not been travel if I only know where to look and go whenever the worry bug hit me and insecurity sits in. But human as we are, we tend to find meaning outside our religious and spiritual context but in the end we realize there is no greater truth than God's love for us. I have not always been like this my mind was like a sponge wanting to know everything this world could ever give and offer. I even find myself studying new age movement but everything is just lies created by human wanting to find deeper meaning with their existence. Nothing wrong you might say but when you are into deeper with these things and get so hooked up not just the basic knowledge you find in the dummy book or some articles in newspaper and magazine then that's the time you questions God existence. If there is a God why would he gives us suffering why would my life not be a bed of roses, why can't I have everything I want but when you get to see closer at your questions you will realize how selfish you are, how self-centered only thinking about what's gonna best suit you. But life is more than just living for yourself and giving the best of everything for your being it is so much more....It is how you live your life and touch other people lives not by the material things you've given but by the quality of time you spend with your close friends and family. The little sacrifice you give, the little things, the simple things, the care and the love. So I guess it's not just another bday for is a new gift, a new life, a new hope and a new love...I am not a perfect person I have so many imperfections and insecurities but I accept it gracefully cause the only way to be happy and be at peace with your life is by loving yourself more and sharing it with everyone

PS: written this last oct. 16, 2006 a year that made a big difference in my life.....

Thank You

Somewhere along the way you meet people who let you see how much of life you missed out and let you see a different perspective than your own preconceived notion then you realize that life is just not as simple as ABC. Life is for you to live it fully and not just dream about it when you go to sleep or let your imagination do the job. For one to enjoy life you must grasp it wholeheartedly, cherish the moment, live only for today, love fully, hurt so much, fall so hard, cry your heart out, laugh out loud and reach out to others. Don't hide yourself in your sheltered little world and just imagine of things to come or wish for the life you want instead try to mold yourself to what you want your life to be. I've just realized how much of life I've taken for granted but then someone came and let you see its not too late to enjoy your moment, to be able to live again without conditions, without regret, without restrictions and be like the bird in the sky so carefree. The only way you could ever show your appreciation is just by saying thank you for the things that open my eyes to a new perspective. Yes I am a dreamer but sometimes dreamer's don't just dream they live too for the moment...

PS: an old post written June 17, 2007


Here I am again after almost a year of hiatus lol...I always forgot some of the websites/blogsites that I have join and only to remember again when a friend ask me if I have a blogsite or imeem or youtube....I am like that a bit crazy, a bit forgetful but very loveable hehehe anyways bear with me if my blog have no content I'm just so busy and seems I am lost for words....I do have another blogsite the addy is all